Today I want to share my experience with you all. Its about a great risk that I took and things were evenly slipping out of my hands. And when I thought that everything is over, and prepared to give up God gave me a push that I needed the most.
I am talking about my decision to stay back a year after +2 to prepare for IIT-JEE. This does not actually look like a big risk but someone who has seen me, who knows me can very well realise the risk that I had taken. I was getting a seat in BITS Pilani in electrical and my parents were just pushing me to bag it. Their point was right as I realised later. They said that I can never read the same thing again with the same enthusiasm like I did the first time and so if I could not crack it this time then it will be really hard in the second attempt. But I was adamant on my decision. I took the leap of faith. But things did not go in my favour.
The first strike of destiny came with the results of Jee Main; I had scored way less than what I had last year. But I assured myself that it was just a case of bad luck and that everything will go right in the next one and overall I have qualified for the Jee advanced. But all the entrances I appeared got really messed up and i ended up scoring less than before in each of them. The last one before Jee advanced was Bitsat and when that slipped out of hand I was totally broken. I lost all hope. If I could not crack these exams that were a cakewalk for me last time then how will I stand up against that devil which shattered me the last time. I lost my appetite, I lost my sleep, I lost my interest in anything. I had made up my mind that I am going to get a seat in one of those institutes that I rejected last time for IIT. The faces of all those people jumped in front of me, those people who had urged me so much not to take this step. I felt like they were mocking me, laughing at me, I felt a punch in my stomach.
Yet deep inside I had this urge. Lets give it a try, one last final push to this broken car, one last surge of trial, one last call of despair. I gave my best, I restricted myself from every single activity that I previously thought I cannot live without. From the dusk to the mid night I slugged with my books in a final attempt to save my skin. But you cannot prepare for the most competitive entrance exam in a week, so I knew nothing much would come out of it.
But at the end of the day some mystical force, some unknown blessing or may my salvation in the last few days saved me. I ended up with a modest rank in Jee and got a seat in one of the premiere colloeges of India.
Friends I am not saying that I prepared for Jee in the last week and ended up where I am. I had prepared well for the first attempt but out of nervousness I could not do well. So the concepts were there at the back of my mind but I did not give it enough time, enough practice. What I did was I tried , no matter how unfruitful my attempts seemed.
So I gained a very crucial lesson in my life, Never give up trying. Because if you try you may lose but if you don`t try you will sure lose, there is no exception to that. And at the end of the day that's what matters is whether you tried till the very last quanta of your energy was exhausted.
I am talking about my decision to stay back a year after +2 to prepare for IIT-JEE. This does not actually look like a big risk but someone who has seen me, who knows me can very well realise the risk that I had taken. I was getting a seat in BITS Pilani in electrical and my parents were just pushing me to bag it. Their point was right as I realised later. They said that I can never read the same thing again with the same enthusiasm like I did the first time and so if I could not crack it this time then it will be really hard in the second attempt. But I was adamant on my decision. I took the leap of faith. But things did not go in my favour.
The first strike of destiny came with the results of Jee Main; I had scored way less than what I had last year. But I assured myself that it was just a case of bad luck and that everything will go right in the next one and overall I have qualified for the Jee advanced. But all the entrances I appeared got really messed up and i ended up scoring less than before in each of them. The last one before Jee advanced was Bitsat and when that slipped out of hand I was totally broken. I lost all hope. If I could not crack these exams that were a cakewalk for me last time then how will I stand up against that devil which shattered me the last time. I lost my appetite, I lost my sleep, I lost my interest in anything. I had made up my mind that I am going to get a seat in one of those institutes that I rejected last time for IIT. The faces of all those people jumped in front of me, those people who had urged me so much not to take this step. I felt like they were mocking me, laughing at me, I felt a punch in my stomach.
Yet deep inside I had this urge. Lets give it a try, one last final push to this broken car, one last surge of trial, one last call of despair. I gave my best, I restricted myself from every single activity that I previously thought I cannot live without. From the dusk to the mid night I slugged with my books in a final attempt to save my skin. But you cannot prepare for the most competitive entrance exam in a week, so I knew nothing much would come out of it.
But at the end of the day some mystical force, some unknown blessing or may my salvation in the last few days saved me. I ended up with a modest rank in Jee and got a seat in one of the premiere colloeges of India.
Friends I am not saying that I prepared for Jee in the last week and ended up where I am. I had prepared well for the first attempt but out of nervousness I could not do well. So the concepts were there at the back of my mind but I did not give it enough time, enough practice. What I did was I tried , no matter how unfruitful my attempts seemed.
So I gained a very crucial lesson in my life, Never give up trying. Because if you try you may lose but if you don`t try you will sure lose, there is no exception to that. And at the end of the day that's what matters is whether you tried till the very last quanta of your energy was exhausted.
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